Reflecting, Dreaming and Turning 40

When my children were babies, I had this idea that as they got older my life would slow down. I’m not sure if was just my optimism or maybe ignorance, but I have found life has only sped up. December was a whirlwind of joy; a season filled with good busyness. Between teaching workshops and finishing commissions, I went to see my children preform in productions, Christmas concerts, recitals, and sports games. It was packed with Advent services, time with family and friends, moments celebrated with great food and all the preparations that make Christmas magical.

After Christmas we packed up and went to Florida for that strange week between Christmas and New Year when no one knows the day of the week. Might as well add being in another state to the confusion! After a very long few months, it was nice to shut it all down and spent time with my family.

After all of that, the start of a new year brought a slower, quieter rhythm and I’m doing my best to hang on to it as long as possible. January has always been a reflective month for me. With my birthday falling on the 3rd, I get a fresh start in more ways that one. This year I turned 40, a milestone that I didn’t give much thought to until it was here. So the last couple of weeks I’ve been giving myself space to reflect. I’ve been thinking about where I’ve been, the things I’ve built and the dreams still waiting to be realized. I have spent time getting up early for cold walks at sunrise, writing in notebooks, and dreaming up plans, both for the big picture and the small everyday moments that anchor my days.

In this quieter season of hibernation, I’m finding space to dream, paint, and plan what’s next. As winter holds its grip, I’m embracing ideas that will bloom in the months to come.

How is your January unfolding? Do you find this season brings refection or renewal for you?